Its spring and love is in the air kind of!!
I have been really busy with uni, football and generally making a mess with of my life nothing ever really changes then! I had the presentation evening for the football team i work 4 last Friday it was an odd but overall enjoyable night. I had things to consider4 a start i didn’t know what to wear cuz obviously i wanted to look sexy but not slutty and not just the players but the board were their 2! I went for a yellow, black and white short in length puff ball dress with low neckline. Ok i looked great it was good to show the lad that i am a girl and i don’t wear a tracksuit all the time although the neckline maybe was unsuitable as most of the night lads looked at my chest and not my face oh well. So i get my bf to drop me off and don’t know how i got him to let me go out with a team of lads but hey he did i was happy. We ate our meal but i cannot believe the state of drugs in everyday life now. I hate drugs with everything that happened with my brother and one of the dads of the lads were even doing poppers at the dinner table and then i know several of the lad did cocaine later. Their is no reason for this they are suppose to be young fit healthy men at i guess semi pro level it really disgraced me. Anyway thats not really my problem until nxt season when they all have heart attacks on the pitch! Touch wood that don’t happen tho the one lad on the last game of the season had a fit and couldn’t breath till his head was supported and put in recovery position, which did scare the poo out of me!! Anyways back to the night i talked to a lad i fancied and been with drunkenly at xmas well not slept with just kissed and my bf has found out and i got in trouble but i couldn’t stay away from him is look really hot. We all moved to a club he paid 4 my entry and all my drinks and eventually the taxi back to the hotel which the presentation took place in and where he was staying that night, which i wasnt my bf was picking me up and taking me home at 2. being drunk i went up to his room and we first mainly talked then we started touching and kissing but we didnt have sex i guess he was 2 drunk. Then my phone rang why am i at the hotel when i should be at the club my bf wants to know i make up a lie that one of the lad was so drunk he needed looking after that worked untill he talked the lads friend the nxt day busted!
The thing is if i do this to my bf how can i possibly love him i don’t even feel guilt i just enjoyed it and the lad did 2 we keep talking and meet on Saturday and today for drinks i have had hour long phone calls with him i think we may have something and he does too here the twist tho not only is it really hard for me to leave my bf of 4 years but he has a gf of the same amount of time. What shall i do we also both have holidays book to go with our partners!!