DUMB and BLONDE!

So maybe i thought he was a mistake at 1st a drunken mistake but he is so much more to me now i have seen the real Carl. He is totally amazing unbelievably funny sexy confidence that drives me mad. He is F..king fantastic with his hands and his tongue/mouth he can make me cum in less than 10 minutes and the orgasms he gives me are so extreme but in a completely different way 2 my vibrator maybe more satisfying cuz its a man. He is so good i would never admit this to him but i would pay him 2 do it though obviously i don’t have to cuz hes a nearly 30 year old man and im a young fit 21 year old! Its not just the sex he admitted that he cares for me i care for him to its just so exciting to be in a new relationship with someone who’s already making me this happy he told me the last 2 wks have been the best 2 wks in his life for a long time! Also he said that the sex we had the other night was the best he had ever. I know its soon and stupid but im falling for him BIG TIME! Only problem now is he is on holiday and this wk whilst he is away will drag so much tho im sure i will get lots of drunken phone calls where i cant understand what the hell he is saying but it proves he is thinking about me whilst he is having a great time around probably hot bikini wearing girls and im stuck in the UK with no job and no money and nothing 2 do but look for jobs 2 try and make money! AAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! Tell u what else is annoying my friend got the job i applied for and i didn’t even get an interview which make u feel like crap!

i tried to get over the other guy that went back 2 gf by getting with his football manger and i did he is almost my boss as well and now i have to work with him for the rest of the year i do actually like him but he says he doesn’t want anything but fun. Problem is cuz he does not want anything it makes me want him more plus when i do go out with him he pays for everything and whilst i do not have a job someone looking after me and spending money on me is appealing tho i guess i feel cheap cuz obviously he is only doing that 2 get something in return! Also i have just spent 10 days in Egypt with my ex and he is great i still can be as physical with him but its not how i like im doing it 2 please him not cuz i want 2 or i have been thinking about the other man and that has made me horny which is wrong! I love my ex he is my best friend i just cant be how he wants me 2 be i do not know if i will ever not be able to cheat if i got back 2gether i would really have to try or risk losing he forever not just as a lover but a friend 2 which would really hurt me!