DUMB and BLONDE!

i tried to get over the other guy that went back 2 gf by getting with his football manger and i did he is almost my boss as well and now i have to work with him for the rest of the year i do actually like him but he says he doesn’t want anything but fun. Problem is cuz he does not want anything it makes me want him more plus when i do go out with him he pays for everything and whilst i do not have a job someone looking after me and spending money on me is appealing tho i guess i feel cheap cuz obviously he is only doing that 2 get something in return! Also i have just spent 10 days in Egypt with my ex and he is great i still can be as physical with him but its not how i like im doing it 2 please him not cuz i want 2 or i have been thinking about the other man and that has made me horny which is wrong! I love my ex he is my best friend i just cant be how he wants me 2 be i do not know if i will ever not be able to cheat if i got back 2gether i would really have to try or risk losing he forever not just as a lover but a friend 2 which would really hurt me!