DUMB and BLONDE!

In love crazy in love its mad!!

dumbblonde — Wed, 03 Sep 2008 15:41:01 +0000

i love him i think he loves me 2 its like a click has occurred in both our heads that made us see how much we love and mean 2 each other for the 1st time ever he was normal with me a football he was even nice by carrying stuff i know during the match he has a lot of pressure on him self so i understand why he doesn’t normally help but yesterday he did! Its a break through or feels like it!! All i want 2 do is kiss him and have him hold me close next 2 his unbelievably sexy body. I am so happy.

WHY now? Do i love him?

dumbblonde — Sun, 24 Aug 2008 16:48:16 +0000

Why now he’s been back a wk and i have already had sex with him 8 times and we just always want each other i suppose this maybe cuz were in the exciting part of our relationship but its amazing only problem is we have this wk whilst his family r away where we can live 2gether like a proper couple, im partly scared we will annoy each other and i have just come on good in a way cuz i know im not pregnant but i don’t want it 2 ruin the beginning of this week! Also does he actually want me 2 stay if im no use to him sexually i hope so cuz that would be prove 2 me that he enjoys me 4 more than sex and during that time of the month a women still can be horny still wants to feel sexy still wants love and physical contact maybe not sex but cuddles and caressing!

Maybe its because our sex is so passionate and hot at the moment and he is so good at pleasing me i really want to tell him i love him. I know that i don’t but their doesn’t seem to be a word that is suitable 2 say how i feel about him its more that just lust i care about him love is too stronger word tho and can scare men when mentioned its kind of between lust and love.

The man is a genius i mean oh my god!

dumbblonde — Sun, 27 Jul 2008 02:56:33 +0000

So maybe i thought he was a mistake at 1st a drunken mistake but he is so much more to me now i have seen the real Carl. He is totally amazing unbelievably funny sexy confidence that drives me mad. He is F..king fantastic with his hands and his tongue/mouth he can make me cum in less than 10 minutes and the orgasms he gives me are so extreme but in a completely different way 2 my vibrator maybe more satisfying cuz its a man. He is so good i would never admit this to him but i would pay him 2 do it though obviously i don’t have to cuz hes a nearly 30 year old man and im a young fit 21 year old! Its not just the sex he admitted that he cares for me i care for him to its just so exciting to be in a new relationship with someone who’s already making me this happy he told me the last 2 wks have been the best 2 wks in his life for a long time! Also he said that the sex we had the other night was the best he had ever. I know its soon and stupid but im falling for him BIG TIME! Only problem now is he is on holiday and this wk whilst he is away will drag so much tho im sure i will get lots of drunken phone calls where i cant understand what the hell he is saying but it proves he is thinking about me whilst he is having a great time around probably hot bikini wearing girls and im stuck in the UK with no job and no money and nothing 2 do but look for jobs 2 try and make money! AAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! Tell u what else is annoying my friend got the job i applied for and i didn’t even get an interview which make u feel like crap!

So i f..cked up well kinda of!

dumbblonde — Wed, 09 Jul 2008 11:00:23 +0000

i tried to get over the other guy that went back 2 gf by getting with his football manger and i did he is almost my boss as well and now i have to work with him for the rest of the year i do actually like him but he says he doesn’t want anything but fun. Problem is cuz he does not want anything it makes me want him more plus when i do go out with him he pays for everything and whilst i do not have a job someone looking after me and spending money on me is appealing tho i guess i feel cheap cuz obviously he is only doing that 2 get something in return! Also i have just spent 10 days in Egypt with my ex and he is great i still can be as physical with him but its not how i like im doing it 2 please him not cuz i want 2 or i have been thinking about the other man and that has made me horny which is wrong! I love my ex he is my best friend i just cant be how he wants me 2 be i do not know if i will ever not be able to cheat if i got back 2gether i would really have to try or risk losing he forever not just as a lover but a friend 2 which would really hurt me!

Im so confused its untrue!

dumbblonde — Fri, 06 Jun 2008 11:52:31 +0000

Well what can i say i have been in a mess since the my new lad went back to his gf after i left my bf for him its typical! I have come to the conclusion that although i don’t think i love my ex bf anymore i still need him cuz he is my best friend.

I felt rejected when that new lad went back to his gf especially as i had become attached to him due to him txting and ringing all the time i initially miss all the time we spent talking on the phone and the exciting stuff u get from a new relationship. I just wanted to know that men other than my ex found me attractive i do realize that how attractive i am had nothing to do with his decision to go back to his ex but i was down so i went and did a few stupid things.

1. I went to the uni beach party with the skimpy clothes on it worked every lad in there looked at me and flirted i felt good about myself i felt hot sexy like i could enjoy being single cuz their is tons of men for me to have fun teasing and dancing with.

2. I got with this other lad that i kiss when i got drunk after my exams he is attractive but not what i normally go for plus he is a player so i probably was a really stupid thing to do i went back to his we gave each other head and had sex tho since he is a player he was crap in bed anyways for some reason it felt ok and fun at the time and he came across nice. But thinking about it now since he has not even txt or rang me since it was stupid and degrading!

3. I had a second beach party 2 night after the 1st one same skimpy outfit this time i go out with my ex and our friends, i flirt with a couple of his friend and end up just looking stupid cuz none of them knew we had split up so that thought i was trying to cheat on him.

4. During that party i txt a lad i kind of liked from footy but with my new phone i got the numbers confused and txt the manager of the footy team i physio for now he thinks i fancy him!

5. Football presentation night i look hot in a sexy fitted black dress everyone tells me a look great fine until i get alcohol in me and start flirting with the lads from the mens team they obviously flirt back im hot! But near the end of the night the lad that has brought me drinks and seemed to like me tells me he is engaged so again i feel like an idiot. I forget it go home with the footy girls feeling very drunk and a little depressed about not pulling.

Somehow i don’t remember how i kiss a girl from my team yes im not only appearing like a slag with men (not that i am really i have only slept with 2 people my ex and that lad the other night) but im doing it with girls 2! She confused by it all feels like shouting at everyone im not a lesbian im thinking well im not either ! She walks off in a huff i go and drink more im a state i get offered and take coke i feel so hypocritical about this cuz i hate drugs i guess drunkenness and curious nature got the better of me plus i wanted 2 know why my brother had ruined his life over this stuff and why the lads and girls at footy take it 2! All i remember from it is being happy like everything was amazing nothing really seemed to happen!

She never came back so i slept in her bed then when she did get back we just shared her bed, i don’t know how she feels about the kiss but later in the wk she txt me a couple of times i just hope she doesn’t fancy me.

So then i went out with uni mates in brum last night until we c each other a graduation i didn’t want to pull in was all about mates and having fun with them 2 night i had a great time till that new lad a was seeing who dumped me 2 go back to his gf showed up with his gf great he took one look at me and walked the other way it crushed me inside we had both agreed to be mates he could have at least txt me when he was away from her to say look i could talk cuz i was with her but how r u i mean he knew i had my exam and never txt me 2 wish me luck and i never got a reply when i txted him on his b day im confused by him so we aren’t seeing each other like that anymore i understand that i just thought agreeing to be friends it seems like only i meant it. Obviously form this u can tell im not over him i really wish i was im so much more than his gf. I just really hope that he did not go back 2 her cuz of losing his job and she has money i hope he did it cuz he does truly love her!!

Nobody

dumbblonde — Wed, 28 May 2008 19:57:35 +0000

So that new lad i was seeing has gone back to his ex girlfriend 2 try and win her back cuz he says he still loves her begs the question why do anything with me if u do love her? but saying that im not sure i don’t love my ex but i need sometime alone single to be free and have some space. Done my exam 2 quite sad really thats it for uni i have finished job hunting and holiday time now! I’m going to miss everyone so much especially Colin my only proper lad friend!! post soon X

Happiness lasts for only the morning!

dumbblonde — Mon, 19 May 2008 20:04:47 +0000

U know how people say the sunshine makes everyone happier it does me. This morning the sun was shining i was dress summery and felt happy in the knowledge that my new man wanted me. I waited ages last night for him 2 reply to my txts he did in the end and we txted all night really sexy naught ones 2 each other and then we both said good night and he said he would txt me 2 day. Problem is i never expected him to txt in the morning but i thought by the time now at nearly nine at night he would have also he said he would read the email i sent him i suppose he could have done that and not replied cuz he thought it was stupid but i was trying to be sweet and funny with it. I mean i suppose im paranoid i don’t know him very well and he probably doesn’t remember to do stuff i did kind of leave my bf cuz he was 2 needy and kept txting and ringing all the time now its the other way and i don’t like it either why cant i just have a lad who txts me occasionally but always replies when i sent him stuff? I think im starting to sound like i moan a lot but if i put it on here it saves me doing it at friends, family, my ex or my new lad. I am finding it is a good way 2 vent and feelings suppose its hitting me now the fact that i have really left my ex after 4 years and that mayb this new lad is nice but not bf material also that my exam is nxt week and all i can think about is him and not my work. I also feel like i use this and facebook to stop my revision anything to put it off im sure everyone that surfs when they should be working can relate to that!!

The new man!

dumbblonde — Sun, 18 May 2008 22:51:07 +0000

he is so sweet but why do things like this keep happening he lost his job on the night of our date, luckily he still came and we still had a great time. I do worry for him but regarding money i don’t care im not a gold digger i have my own money i save up i can afford pretty much wat i like even tho i am only a student i dont need him 2 buy me things tho this is hard cuz he feels as the man he should pay for everything and only let me buy 1 round of drinks all night.

We started in lloyds bar it was a bit odd at 1st cuz how can u know what 2 say to someone who has lost their job and is noticeably upset and down about it. We talked and had more drinks and ended up laughing and having a great time we r just so happy and relaxed around each other i honestly think i was good 4 him 2 take his mind off his obvious worries! We then went 2 a club it felt strange to me cuz when ever i go to clubs i never go with just 1 person i go with loads of people but it meant we could spend time dancing and concentrating on just each other. It was not long till i was kissing his sexy lips, grabbing his sweet little ass and noticing something big and hard poking into me when i danced with him i love it when i make men horny and i can feel him pressing into me, it just makes me so hot that i wanted 2 rip his clothes off and fuck him their in the club just like the usher song was saying!! obviously i restrained myself 2 just feeling his hard on through his jeans and kissing his unbelievably sexy sweet smelling neck! mmmmm i wish i could feel and kiss him now im so horny just thinking about how good it felt to kiss and touch him!!

What to wear it a women nightmare on a first proper date!

dumbblonde — Sat, 17 May 2008 20:22:35 +0000

I really like this lad so i have actually been seeing each other for 2 wks but it was always kind of rushed before cuz we both were hiding our relationship be hide our partners backs. Now we have split up from them so technically this is our 1st proper date and im so nervous. I’m kind of sexy with what i normally wear anyway i mean generally people say don’t do both cleavage and legs together but lets face it most men likes this! Its not like he hasn’t seen me like this at footy Christmas and presentation nights but i was allowed to try for them. I think maybe it looks like im trying 2 much if i dress like that for just meeting him for a drink. Although it’s kind of in a bar that later turn into a club at night so at the moment im thinking skinny jeans fitted shirt and heels it should make me look tall thin with good cleavage. I did really want to wear my mini skirt and strappy top

Not seeing him, Holidays, and revision!

dumbblonde — Wed, 14 May 2008 22:30:39 +0000

I’m lonely i have left my bf 4 another man who lives 40mins away and it quite a busy person who also dealing with his break up 2! I have been talking 2 him on the phone but he seems depressed that his ex hates him and his ex’s friends obviously do 2 as well! I haven’t got this my ex is still buying me presents and ringing me all the time in a vain hope i will return to him i do love him but love like a friend not a lover.

Holidays have been arranged and we did this b4 we split from our partners so he still has to go with his partner im not happy about but hey ho im going with mine still so i have no right 2 object anyways. It still slightly worrying but i guess he may think the same that’s if he realizes that not only he has problems with his ex but i do 2!

I need to stop thinking about all this new rubbish with relationships and concentrate on revision but its far 2 hard not to get distracted.

The exams in 2 wks scary!!! On a happy note Hull city won and r going 2 wembley yay!!!