DUMB and BLONDE!

b4 any real relationships i would have said being honest with a person about cheating and not cheating in the 1st place is important how wrong was i as i never realized temptation makes us behave in weird ways causing us to break bonds and hurt people just so we can feel wanted by others other than our partners! I’m feeling quite deep and insightful for once maybe I’m growing up it is so close 2 the end of an era i feel kind of sad inside no more lectures, tutors, bar crawls, presentations, exams, assignments, referencing, losing my uni card, riding the train 2 Brum and most of all after 3 years not seeing my friends. Time flies it is so true no wonder im scared and sad im moving on in all aspects of my life it worries me maybe its good change i mean maybe leaving my boyfriend of 4 years 4 a lad on the footy team is not as stupid as i first thought i think maybe in time he may even lust after me alot i struggle to say love i thought i had that i suppose i have still for my Ex but he is loved by me like family rather than lover i need time and space and hopefully everything will calm down and be great again b4 i messed up my love life!

I have been friends with Frannie since my 1st day at uni 3 years ago, we have shared so much i just get the feeling that im nearly at the end of uni with her and we are drifting apart i dont know what runs through her head it really hurt me what she has done 2 me recently friends dont do the things ive let her get away with yet even though she is this way i struggle to stay mad with her.

So il explain what she did the 1st time she was all for me going out with her on the bar crawl girls night as until the end we were apart from the lads. Great i thought just girly fun no males distractions. She barely talks 2 me all night then leaves for the last place on the bar crawl without me does matter ive found some of my male friends im happily dancing. I’m staying at hers so later on i look 4 her she is so drunk she is nearly passed out on a chair with a lad. By the time we leave she doesnt want me 2 go home with her she wants 2 go with this lad instead of me even tho it was suppose to be a girly night and all my stuff is at hers!!! I stuck in Brum with nowhere 2 stay great wat a friend! My male friend ask if i want 2 stay with him i dnt i know he is being nice but he has also admitted 2 me that he does fancy me and in the small college rooms id rather not put temptation  plus he may think i like him back if i do that so i say no . Lucky quakes is there she says a spare room at her bfs and that i can wear her tracksuit back 2 frannie in the morning.

That was a while ago and forgot about it and forgave her, yesterday however she was unbelievably selfish and got very drunk the night before a very important group presentation she had awful hangover and didnt want to do the presentation then she starts being sick everywhere. She actually did the presentation but ran out half way through to throw up and did nothing 2 help with the prep and the report afterwards.

Me and my male friend i said about earlier told her we failed we haven’t but she needs to sweat for being so selfish!

I have been really busy with uni, football and generally making a mess with of my life nothing ever really changes then! I had the presentation evening for the football team i work 4 last Friday it was an odd but overall enjoyable night. I had things to consider4 a start i didn’t know what to wear cuz obviously i wanted to look sexy but not slutty and not just the players but the board were their 2! I went for a yellow, black and white short in length puff ball dress with low neckline. Ok i looked great it was good to show the lad that i am a girl and i don’t wear a tracksuit all the time although the neckline maybe was unsuitable as most of the night lads looked at my chest and not my face oh well. So i get my bf to drop me off and don’t know how i got him to let me go out with a team of lads but hey he did i was happy. We ate our meal but i cannot believe the state of drugs in everyday life now. I hate drugs with everything that happened with my brother and one of the dads of the lads were even doing poppers at the dinner table and then i know several of the lad did cocaine later. Their is no reason for this they are suppose to be young fit healthy men at i guess semi pro level it really disgraced me. Anyway thats not really my problem until nxt season when they all have heart attacks on the pitch! Touch wood that don’t happen tho the one lad on the last game of the season had a fit and couldn’t breath till his head was supported and put in recovery position, which did scare the poo out of me!! Anyways back to the night i talked to a lad i fancied and been with drunkenly at xmas well not slept with just kissed and my bf has found out and i got in trouble but i couldn’t stay away from him is look really hot. We all moved to a club he paid 4 my entry and all my drinks and eventually the taxi back to the hotel which the presentation took place in and where he was staying that night, which i wasnt my bf was picking me up and taking me home at 2. being drunk i went up to his room and we first mainly talked then we started touching and kissing but we didnt have sex i guess he was 2 drunk. Then my phone rang why am i at the hotel when i should be at the club my bf wants to know i make up a lie that one of the lad was so drunk he needed looking after that worked untill he talked the lads friend the nxt day busted!

The thing is if i do this to my bf how can i possibly love him i don’t even feel guilt i just enjoyed it and the lad did 2 we keep talking and meet on Saturday and today for drinks i have had hour long phone calls with him i think we may have something and he does too here the twist tho not only is it really hard for me to leave my bf of 4 years but he has a gf of the same amount of time. What shall i do we also both have holidays book to go with our partners!!

Well not really just dissertation hand in date looming over my head and im in hospital 2moz for more test on my heart condition, which is never much fun doctors and nurse poking u. I just hope they don’t make me run on the treadmill without a bra again that was a sight! No football today called off cuz of the snow (what ups with this country and its weather its just so odd!), stupid really it melted b4 kick off but never mind i when down the park with the lads to play instead which was a great laugh not the same physical output of a game tho, so that means less chocolate this wk!!

Need advice on laser hair removing i wonder if u can get ur bikini line and arm pits done that would be cool! Saying that out of student price range id have though but who knows!

Any girls out their fancy trying vibrators go for it i wish i had earlier so much fun and gives quick orgasms that quick release of sexual frustration is always needed especially during times of stress!!! The best one i have is the cone.

What kind of person steals money off his own little sister well thats my brother it was not lot but cuz i earn less than £50 a wk it is a lot 2 me! ive forgiven him so many times it is untrue but im getting to the stage where i really hate him but at the same time he is still my brother and i cannot how ever much i want to stop loving him even tho hes 2 dumb 2 even know this!!!!

We won 3-0 at footy today so that was good especially keeping a clean sheet as a central  defender! I still worry about how little goal threat we have i mean i guess if ur reading this ur thinking well u scored 3 but in fact we missed at least 10 clear cut chances only 1-0 up at half time.

It was really sweet of Steve .T. 2 say he felt upset when he saw me in hospital and that we would have done better if i hadn’t been ill!!

I have got some really good people in my life and i need to remember this when my brother gets me down. All my uni, footy both, rob going out friends mum and dad and other family are all great

I just found this on our coach Steve .E.
QUALIFICATIONS:
FA Level 3 Certificate in Coaching Football (UEFA B)
FA Level 2 Goalkeeper Coaching
COACHING CAREER:
Birmingham City FC, West Bromwich Albion FC, Aston Villa Ladies FC, Coventry City Ladies FC
Founding member of current Goalkeeper Coaching Programme

pretty damn impressive i really love this bloke he is great for my team!!

Really bad Period pain and it so heavy its untrue! It is not what i need when i have only 16 days left to finish and hand in my dissertation it making me eat my easter eggs even quicker than normal.

I worried about my friends too lets call them jerry and ken. Jerry is one of my best mates she just keeps treating ken like poo and annoying her friends doing this.And by going off by her self on our nights out. The night was for kens birthday but it seemed to be more about how jerry could get more attention!

Also with my brother being such a loser i feel like their is so much pressure on me and passing my final year of my degree it scares me so much the thought of not passing and letting everyone including my mum and dad down!Oh well i tried really hard hopefully it enough

love u and leave u new hair tomorrow for me so something 2 look ward to even if i should be working on my dis and not having my hair done!!!

1. still struggling with my dissertation! It in on the 10th ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
2. My brother got his head beaten in cuz he has a drug problem and owes god knows how much money. its not that bothering me im scared they will come after me and me family.
3. dumbness with my new car. I tried to open the petrol cap and opened the bonnet instead! I drove into a bush, luckily no marks on lupo! I could not start the car and it was only cuz i did put the key in further enough and last of all i couldn’t work out why the one side of the cars lights were on even tho the keys were out, the light were supposedly off, so i left them on for my dad to tell me that i left the indicator on!

4. I have no money and i have to pay for my car to be serviced, i wanted to make it look nicer with pink things that i cant afford, i have to pay for my holiday, the football seasons nearly over no more money! I need clothes in general and for my holiday. I lost weight with the gall bladder and non of my bras fit and my short r all too big plus i have thin holey socks that need replacing.

When this happens all i want to do is have sex, masturbate, play football and eat chocolate cuz these things make me feel better!!

So im putting off my dissertation more just thought id say how fit TIM BURGESS is what a sex god if he wasn’t married to Michelle id give him one heart condition or on heart condition!!! XX

Plus i deserve to have him cuz i got a ‘A’ on my diagnostics exam not so dumb after all!!!! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYY!

What can i say its never good news to find something wrong with u especially when ur only 21 but as the title says i have a heart condition called Wolff Parkinson white syndrome, meaning i have likeness to have palpitations and die well hopefully not that last bit i don’t feel too bad at the moment i play footy on Sunday against Redditch and we won 2-0 i managed to hurt my Achilles and therefore my ankle is swollen to add to my troubles. In the last year of uni trying to do a stressful dissertation about a topic that i have made far to complex what was i thinking how the physiology of the endocrine system affects performance of female athletes. anyway im writing this again cuz im stressed with everything and cant think what else i should write it not really that i don’t like or understand my topic its more that i don’t know how i should be writing it to get a good mark!!

So i have so much 2 do on my dissertation but only a month 2 do it 10 thousand words i have like i dont know 4000 properly less cuz what i do have is shit! I also have to miss uni 2 morro cuz i have to see the cardiologist about my heart problem condition they think i have which is a pain!!! oh well tell you how it goes 2moz!!! X