DUMB and BLONDE!

U know how people say the sunshine makes everyone happier it does me. This morning the sun was shining i was dress summery and felt happy in the knowledge that my new man wanted me. I waited ages last night for him 2 reply to my txts he did in the end and we txted all night really sexy naught ones 2 each other and then we both said good night and he said he would txt me 2 day. Problem is i never expected him to txt in the morning but i thought by the time now at nearly nine at night he would have also he said he would read the email i sent him i suppose he could have done that and not replied cuz he thought it was stupid but i was trying to be sweet and funny with it. I mean i suppose im paranoid i don’t know him very well and he probably doesn’t remember to do stuff i did kind of leave my bf cuz he was 2 needy and kept txting and ringing all the time now its the other way and i don’t like it either why cant i just have a lad who txts me occasionally but always replies when i sent him stuff? I think im starting to sound like i moan a lot but if i put it on here it saves me doing it at friends, family, my ex or my new lad. I am finding it is a good way 2 vent and feelings suppose its hitting me now the fact that i have really left my ex after 4 years and that mayb this new lad is nice but not bf material also that my exam is nxt week and all i can think about is him and not my work. I also feel like i use this and facebook to stop my revision anything to put it off im sure everyone that surfs when they should be working can relate to that!!

he is so sweet but why do things like this keep happening he lost his job on the night of our date, luckily he still came and we still had a great time. I do worry for him but regarding money i don’t care im not a gold digger i have my own money i save up i can afford pretty much wat i like even tho i am only a student i dont need him 2 buy me things tho this is hard cuz he feels as the man he should pay for everything and only let me buy 1 round of drinks all night.

We started in lloyds bar it was a bit odd at 1st cuz how can u know what 2 say to someone who has lost their job and is noticeably upset and down about it. We talked and had more drinks and ended up laughing and having a great time we r just so happy and relaxed around each other i honestly think i was good 4 him 2 take his mind off his obvious worries! We then went 2 a club it felt strange to me cuz when ever i go to clubs i never go with just 1 person i go with loads of people but it meant we could spend time dancing and concentrating on just each other. It was not long till i was kissing his sexy lips, grabbing his sweet little ass and noticing something big and hard poking into me when i danced with him i love it when i make men horny and i can feel him pressing into me, it just makes me so hot that i wanted 2 rip his clothes off and fuck him their in the club just like the usher song was saying!! obviously i restrained myself 2 just feeling his hard on through his jeans and kissing his unbelievably sexy sweet smelling neck! mmmmm i wish i could feel and kiss him now im so horny just thinking about how good it felt to kiss and touch him!!

I really like this lad so i have actually been seeing each other for 2 wks but it was always kind of rushed before cuz we both were hiding our relationship be hide our partners backs. Now we have split up from them so technically this is our 1st proper date and im so nervous. I’m kind of sexy with what i normally wear anyway i mean generally people say don’t do both cleavage and legs together but lets face it most men likes this! Its not like he hasn’t seen me like this at footy Christmas and presentation nights but i was allowed to try for them. I think maybe it looks like im trying 2 much if i dress like that for just meeting him for a drink. Although it’s kind of in a bar that later turn into a club at night so at the moment im thinking skinny jeans fitted shirt and heels it should make me look tall thin with good cleavage. I did really want to wear my mini skirt and strappy top

I’m lonely i have left my bf 4 another man who lives 40mins away and it quite a busy person who also dealing with his break up 2! I have been talking 2 him on the phone but he seems depressed that his ex hates him and his ex’s friends obviously do 2 as well! I haven’t got this my ex is still buying me presents and ringing me all the time in a vain hope i will return to him i do love him but love like a friend not a lover.

Holidays have been arranged and we did this b4 we split from our partners so he still has to go with his partner im not happy about but hey ho im going with mine still so i have no right 2 object anyways. It still slightly worrying but i guess he may think the same that’s if he realizes that not only he has problems with his ex but i do 2!

I need to stop thinking about all this new rubbish with relationships and concentrate on revision but its far 2 hard not to get distracted.

The exams in 2 wks scary!!! On a happy note Hull city won and r going 2 wembley yay!!!