DUMB and BLONDE!

he is so sweet but why do things like this keep happening he lost his job on the night of our date, luckily he still came and we still had a great time. I do worry for him but regarding money i don’t care im not a gold digger i have my own money i save up i can afford pretty much wat i like even tho i am only a student i dont need him 2 buy me things tho this is hard cuz he feels as the man he should pay for everything and only let me buy 1 round of drinks all night.

We started in lloyds bar it was a bit odd at 1st cuz how can u know what 2 say to someone who has lost their job and is noticeably upset and down about it. We talked and had more drinks and ended up laughing and having a great time we r just so happy and relaxed around each other i honestly think i was good 4 him 2 take his mind off his obvious worries! We then went 2 a club it felt strange to me cuz when ever i go to clubs i never go with just 1 person i go with loads of people but it meant we could spend time dancing and concentrating on just each other. It was not long till i was kissing his sexy lips, grabbing his sweet little ass and noticing something big and hard poking into me when i danced with him i love it when i make men horny and i can feel him pressing into me, it just makes me so hot that i wanted 2 rip his clothes off and fuck him their in the club just like the usher song was saying!! obviously i restrained myself 2 just feeling his hard on through his jeans and kissing his unbelievably sexy sweet smelling neck! mmmmm i wish i could feel and kiss him now im so horny just thinking about how good it felt to kiss and touch him!!

I really like this lad so i have actually been seeing each other for 2 wks but it was always kind of rushed before cuz we both were hiding our relationship be hide our partners backs. Now we have split up from them so technically this is our 1st proper date and im so nervous. I’m kind of sexy with what i normally wear anyway i mean generally people say don’t do both cleavage and legs together but lets face it most men likes this! Its not like he hasn’t seen me like this at footy Christmas and presentation nights but i was allowed to try for them. I think maybe it looks like im trying 2 much if i dress like that for just meeting him for a drink. Although it’s kind of in a bar that later turn into a club at night so at the moment im thinking skinny jeans fitted shirt and heels it should make me look tall thin with good cleavage. I did really want to wear my mini skirt and strappy top

I have been really busy with uni, football and generally making a mess with of my life nothing ever really changes then! I had the presentation evening for the football team i work 4 last Friday it was an odd but overall enjoyable night. I had things to consider4 a start i didn’t know what to wear cuz obviously i wanted to look sexy but not slutty and not just the players but the board were their 2! I went for a yellow, black and white short in length puff ball dress with low neckline. Ok i looked great it was good to show the lad that i am a girl and i don’t wear a tracksuit all the time although the neckline maybe was unsuitable as most of the night lads looked at my chest and not my face oh well. So i get my bf to drop me off and don’t know how i got him to let me go out with a team of lads but hey he did i was happy. We ate our meal but i cannot believe the state of drugs in everyday life now. I hate drugs with everything that happened with my brother and one of the dads of the lads were even doing poppers at the dinner table and then i know several of the lad did cocaine later. Their is no reason for this they are suppose to be young fit healthy men at i guess semi pro level it really disgraced me. Anyway thats not really my problem until nxt season when they all have heart attacks on the pitch! Touch wood that don’t happen tho the one lad on the last game of the season had a fit and couldn’t breath till his head was supported and put in recovery position, which did scare the poo out of me!! Anyways back to the night i talked to a lad i fancied and been with drunkenly at xmas well not slept with just kissed and my bf has found out and i got in trouble but i couldn’t stay away from him is look really hot. We all moved to a club he paid 4 my entry and all my drinks and eventually the taxi back to the hotel which the presentation took place in and where he was staying that night, which i wasnt my bf was picking me up and taking me home at 2. being drunk i went up to his room and we first mainly talked then we started touching and kissing but we didnt have sex i guess he was 2 drunk. Then my phone rang why am i at the hotel when i should be at the club my bf wants to know i make up a lie that one of the lad was so drunk he needed looking after that worked untill he talked the lads friend the nxt day busted!

The thing is if i do this to my bf how can i possibly love him i don’t even feel guilt i just enjoyed it and the lad did 2 we keep talking and meet on Saturday and today for drinks i have had hour long phone calls with him i think we may have something and he does too here the twist tho not only is it really hard for me to leave my bf of 4 years but he has a gf of the same amount of time. What shall i do we also both have holidays book to go with our partners!!

Well not really just dissertation hand in date looming over my head and im in hospital 2moz for more test on my heart condition, which is never much fun doctors and nurse poking u. I just hope they don’t make me run on the treadmill without a bra again that was a sight! No football today called off cuz of the snow (what ups with this country and its weather its just so odd!), stupid really it melted b4 kick off but never mind i when down the park with the lads to play instead which was a great laugh not the same physical output of a game tho, so that means less chocolate this wk!!

Need advice on laser hair removing i wonder if u can get ur bikini line and arm pits done that would be cool! Saying that out of student price range id have though but who knows!

Any girls out their fancy trying vibrators go for it i wish i had earlier so much fun and gives quick orgasms that quick release of sexual frustration is always needed especially during times of stress!!! The best one i have is the cone.

1. still struggling with my dissertation! It in on the 10th ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
2. My brother got his head beaten in cuz he has a drug problem and owes god knows how much money. its not that bothering me im scared they will come after me and me family.
3. dumbness with my new car. I tried to open the petrol cap and opened the bonnet instead! I drove into a bush, luckily no marks on lupo! I could not start the car and it was only cuz i did put the key in further enough and last of all i couldn’t work out why the one side of the cars lights were on even tho the keys were out, the light were supposedly off, so i left them on for my dad to tell me that i left the indicator on!

4. I have no money and i have to pay for my car to be serviced, i wanted to make it look nicer with pink things that i cant afford, i have to pay for my holiday, the football seasons nearly over no more money! I need clothes in general and for my holiday. I lost weight with the gall bladder and non of my bras fit and my short r all too big plus i have thin holey socks that need replacing.

When this happens all i want to do is have sex, masturbate, play football and eat chocolate cuz these things make me feel better!!

So im putting off my dissertation more just thought id say how fit TIM BURGESS is what a sex god if he wasn’t married to Michelle id give him one heart condition or on heart condition!!! XX

Plus i deserve to have him cuz i got a ‘A’ on my diagnostics exam not so dumb after all!!!! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYY!

Maybe im not so dumb after all well it did take me 4 times to pass my driving test but i have finally done it! YAY!!!!! I also brought my pride and joy a black VW LUPO who i have called Lucy! She so obviously a girl car, anyway i really wanted a pink car cuz what girl wouldn’t especially a blonde Barbie look a like like me! But i had to settle for black but it a solid car and hopefully i can PINK MY RIDE with pink alloys, window wipers, steering wheel tax disc holder, window winders, mats, seat covers as all as they aren’t tacky i really fancy HOT PINK!And the last two things that will set Lucy off perfect r racing stripes and a pink ball on her ariel!! This is what i wanted really.

and this is what i have to work with because being a student i cant afford a cool paint job! But its still really cute looking and i can make it look as good as some ive seen on pink my ride on

http://www.gbdriver.co.uk/acatalog/pinkedmyride.html

then i will be a happy girly! i only mean the ones that aren’t covered in fluff i don’t do fluff that is deficiently tacky so is the whole dice thing 2! anyways although thats all good i can even drive her till Thursday oh well i have something to look ward to cant wait i really cant believe i actually own a car, i mean its mine really mine!!!

so need to explain im a very girly girl who loves pink and everyone thinks of me as a pretty dumb blonde suppose i live up 2 this maybe cuz its fun sometimes. Plus when ur pretty u can manipulate men to do what u want well most of them anyways. I love football (soccer if ur a yank) i live it everyday, watching it, playing it, physio for it plus i am a qualified coach and ref but i don’t do these much anymore. At uni currently in my most stressful last year and i should be doing my dissertation instead im writing this!! I’m studying Sports Therapy which is kind of like physiotherapy but we concentrate on sports injuries and rehabilitation. With how bad my last year is going even though i don’t want to give up im very close. I’m be hide on my dissertation cuz ive been ill with and need a open stomach operation i worked really hard to assignments and got a C+ and D- that made me feel really dumb and shit so im wondering if the best thing to do is to live up 2 how i look and admit i must be just be a f…king pretty dumb blonde!!!