DUMB and BLONDE!

U know how people say the sunshine makes everyone happier it does me. This morning the sun was shining i was dress summery and felt happy in the knowledge that my new man wanted me. I waited ages last night for him 2 reply to my txts he did in the end and we txted all night really sexy naught ones 2 each other and then we both said good night and he said he would txt me 2 day. Problem is i never expected him to txt in the morning but i thought by the time now at nearly nine at night he would have also he said he would read the email i sent him i suppose he could have done that and not replied cuz he thought it was stupid but i was trying to be sweet and funny with it. I mean i suppose im paranoid i don’t know him very well and he probably doesn’t remember to do stuff i did kind of leave my bf cuz he was 2 needy and kept txting and ringing all the time now its the other way and i don’t like it either why cant i just have a lad who txts me occasionally but always replies when i sent him stuff? I think im starting to sound like i moan a lot but if i put it on here it saves me doing it at friends, family, my ex or my new lad. I am finding it is a good way 2 vent and feelings suppose its hitting me now the fact that i have really left my ex after 4 years and that mayb this new lad is nice but not bf material also that my exam is nxt week and all i can think about is him and not my work. I also feel like i use this and facebook to stop my revision anything to put it off im sure everyone that surfs when they should be working can relate to that!!

I’m lonely i have left my bf 4 another man who lives 40mins away and it quite a busy person who also dealing with his break up 2! I have been talking 2 him on the phone but he seems depressed that his ex hates him and his ex’s friends obviously do 2 as well! I haven’t got this my ex is still buying me presents and ringing me all the time in a vain hope i will return to him i do love him but love like a friend not a lover.

Holidays have been arranged and we did this b4 we split from our partners so he still has to go with his partner im not happy about but hey ho im going with mine still so i have no right 2 object anyways. It still slightly worrying but i guess he may think the same that’s if he realizes that not only he has problems with his ex but i do 2!

I need to stop thinking about all this new rubbish with relationships and concentrate on revision but its far 2 hard not to get distracted.

The exams in 2 wks scary!!! On a happy note Hull city won and r going 2 wembley yay!!!

b4 any real relationships i would have said being honest with a person about cheating and not cheating in the 1st place is important how wrong was i as i never realized temptation makes us behave in weird ways causing us to break bonds and hurt people just so we can feel wanted by others other than our partners! I’m feeling quite deep and insightful for once maybe I’m growing up it is so close 2 the end of an era i feel kind of sad inside no more lectures, tutors, bar crawls, presentations, exams, assignments, referencing, losing my uni card, riding the train 2 Brum and most of all after 3 years not seeing my friends. Time flies it is so true no wonder im scared and sad im moving on in all aspects of my life it worries me maybe its good change i mean maybe leaving my boyfriend of 4 years 4 a lad on the footy team is not as stupid as i first thought i think maybe in time he may even lust after me alot i struggle to say love i thought i had that i suppose i have still for my Ex but he is loved by me like family rather than lover i need time and space and hopefully everything will calm down and be great again b4 i messed up my love life!

I have been friends with Frannie since my 1st day at uni 3 years ago, we have shared so much i just get the feeling that im nearly at the end of uni with her and we are drifting apart i dont know what runs through her head it really hurt me what she has done 2 me recently friends dont do the things ive let her get away with yet even though she is this way i struggle to stay mad with her.

So il explain what she did the 1st time she was all for me going out with her on the bar crawl girls night as until the end we were apart from the lads. Great i thought just girly fun no males distractions. She barely talks 2 me all night then leaves for the last place on the bar crawl without me does matter ive found some of my male friends im happily dancing. I’m staying at hers so later on i look 4 her she is so drunk she is nearly passed out on a chair with a lad. By the time we leave she doesnt want me 2 go home with her she wants 2 go with this lad instead of me even tho it was suppose to be a girly night and all my stuff is at hers!!! I stuck in Brum with nowhere 2 stay great wat a friend! My male friend ask if i want 2 stay with him i dnt i know he is being nice but he has also admitted 2 me that he does fancy me and in the small college rooms id rather not put temptation  plus he may think i like him back if i do that so i say no . Lucky quakes is there she says a spare room at her bfs and that i can wear her tracksuit back 2 frannie in the morning.

That was a while ago and forgot about it and forgave her, yesterday however she was unbelievably selfish and got very drunk the night before a very important group presentation she had awful hangover and didnt want to do the presentation then she starts being sick everywhere. She actually did the presentation but ran out half way through to throw up and did nothing 2 help with the prep and the report afterwards.

Me and my male friend i said about earlier told her we failed we haven’t but she needs to sweat for being so selfish!

Well not really just dissertation hand in date looming over my head and im in hospital 2moz for more test on my heart condition, which is never much fun doctors and nurse poking u. I just hope they don’t make me run on the treadmill without a bra again that was a sight! No football today called off cuz of the snow (what ups with this country and its weather its just so odd!), stupid really it melted b4 kick off but never mind i when down the park with the lads to play instead which was a great laugh not the same physical output of a game tho, so that means less chocolate this wk!!

Need advice on laser hair removing i wonder if u can get ur bikini line and arm pits done that would be cool! Saying that out of student price range id have though but who knows!

Any girls out their fancy trying vibrators go for it i wish i had earlier so much fun and gives quick orgasms that quick release of sexual frustration is always needed especially during times of stress!!! The best one i have is the cone.

Really bad Period pain and it so heavy its untrue! It is not what i need when i have only 16 days left to finish and hand in my dissertation it making me eat my easter eggs even quicker than normal.

I worried about my friends too lets call them jerry and ken. Jerry is one of my best mates she just keeps treating ken like poo and annoying her friends doing this.And by going off by her self on our nights out. The night was for kens birthday but it seemed to be more about how jerry could get more attention!

Also with my brother being such a loser i feel like their is so much pressure on me and passing my final year of my degree it scares me so much the thought of not passing and letting everyone including my mum and dad down!Oh well i tried really hard hopefully it enough

love u and leave u new hair tomorrow for me so something 2 look ward to even if i should be working on my dis and not having my hair done!!!

So im putting off my dissertation more just thought id say how fit TIM BURGESS is what a sex god if he wasn’t married to Michelle id give him one heart condition or on heart condition!!! XX

Plus i deserve to have him cuz i got a ‘A’ on my diagnostics exam not so dumb after all!!!! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYY!

What can i say its never good news to find something wrong with u especially when ur only 21 but as the title says i have a heart condition called Wolff Parkinson white syndrome, meaning i have likeness to have palpitations and die well hopefully not that last bit i don’t feel too bad at the moment i play footy on Sunday against Redditch and we won 2-0 i managed to hurt my Achilles and therefore my ankle is swollen to add to my troubles. In the last year of uni trying to do a stressful dissertation about a topic that i have made far to complex what was i thinking how the physiology of the endocrine system affects performance of female athletes. anyway im writing this again cuz im stressed with everything and cant think what else i should write it not really that i don’t like or understand my topic its more that i don’t know how i should be writing it to get a good mark!!

So i have so much 2 do on my dissertation but only a month 2 do it 10 thousand words i have like i dont know 4000 properly less cuz what i do have is shit! I also have to miss uni 2 morro cuz i have to see the cardiologist about my heart problem condition they think i have which is a pain!!! oh well tell you how it goes 2moz!!! X

so need to explain im a very girly girl who loves pink and everyone thinks of me as a pretty dumb blonde suppose i live up 2 this maybe cuz its fun sometimes. Plus when ur pretty u can manipulate men to do what u want well most of them anyways. I love football (soccer if ur a yank) i live it everyday, watching it, playing it, physio for it plus i am a qualified coach and ref but i don’t do these much anymore. At uni currently in my most stressful last year and i should be doing my dissertation instead im writing this!! I’m studying Sports Therapy which is kind of like physiotherapy but we concentrate on sports injuries and rehabilitation. With how bad my last year is going even though i don’t want to give up im very close. I’m be hide on my dissertation cuz ive been ill with and need a open stomach operation i worked really hard to assignments and got a C+ and D- that made me feel really dumb and shit so im wondering if the best thing to do is to live up 2 how i look and admit i must be just be a f…king pretty dumb blonde!!!